Tonight I started thinking, as I often do, about what I want my life to look like and where I am now and how I am nowhere close to my visions. I think it gets me down and I sit down at the computer to look at all the women out there that appear to have what I want. A real closeness with their children and with the simple world around them. They seem to make the world beautiful around them. Tonight as I was going through this ritual, I realized it was doing me no good and that I had just better get up and act. I went out to the living room and put on music (Nora Jones, I love, love, love her) and started picking up my disastrous house. I kept thinking about what I wanted but the thoughts seem to be more productive. I also decided that if I wanted to accomplish certain things, it might be helpful to document it. Hence the reason I am sitting here. I know my house is a mess and I don't know if I want pictures to remind me of what it looks like now, but maybe I might appreciate them someday when I have made progress and I no longer let things get this bad. I want to be productive and I want to follow through with my dreams, but I know I have to start small, maybe by just documenting my successes and failures I will be able to see progress and really appreciate it. So for the pictures!
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